Wow, God is so good. I had an amazingly productive day. It's amazing what I can accomplish in a day, A good gym workout, some cleaning around the house, then dropped off one child at a friends, hit the library, the D.I., Then the bank and costco.. Yeah, do NOT , I repeat, Do not go to Costco on a Friday, It is seriously worse than Saturday. I thought I was good and I don't think I have stood in a line that long for awhile. Yikes! Then J-man and I grabbed some frappucino's, and then ran to Smith's for a few other things. He was such a great helper, and man, we had fun. Riding on carts, and crashing into each other, tasting samples. And just chatting. My baby is getting so big. Anyway, I made him help me with the stairs that were covered in leaves. We didn't have tools, so we used a broom, and a cardboard box! Improvisation, Baby!!

Yep! Success! Thanks to my boy for the help! I seriously have the best kids in the world.

Then to an amazing meeting for church where God was so present all over it and made me feel as though I was me again, Worshiping God, socializing, staying and helping clean up and not worrying about anything other than showing people that they matter not just to God, but to me!!!

Parent Teacher Conferences.. Ugh

Parent Teacher conferences...oi What a crazy night... I always schedule my son's appointment last knowing that it will usually take the longest. Not because he is worse than the girls, or anything, but he is more social than the other two and They usually have more to say about him. So I scheduled his appointment for 4:45pm and the girls at 4:00 and 4:15. In and out of the girls appointments just as planned.. a little late getting into one of them but that is typical. As I head to my son's appointment it is 4:40, I get there and she isn't just behind.. there isn't just one person standing there... there are 2 people standing there waiting for their turn and the other family just went in.. Oh it's gonna be a long night.. I figure I have at least 30 minutes until it's my turn. I forgot that Addy had dance at 5, so I race her to dance, and I go back, to sit, and sit and sit. Finally it is 6 pm, And almost my turn, but I have to leave to get Addy from dance.. Here we go.. I get back to the school 3 minutes after the person who was in front of me in line gets out. So now I am one back and have to wait some more.. She gets done and BOOM she takes some guy and his kid.. Ugh. Lady, I really want to go home to eat. I haven't been home since 8:20.. Yes, AM!! So here I am sitting in the hallway waiting, 2 more families show up, I better be next, She comes out.. and the lady who is sitting there with her son, and the school counselor, says that she is next. That she has someone waiting for her. I wanted to tell her that my kids hadn't eaten we had been there since 4, and we were tired. But I think that my son's teacher sensed I was tired and so done, and she took me in and I got a 10 minute meeting. 10 MINUTES!!!! Seriously.. I waited 2 hours for a measly 10 minutes, Everyone else had 20-30 minutes, I got 10?? Kind of felt jipped but I was ready to get out of there and didn't have the energy to keep talking. Not sure why everyone else took so long. I got the info I needed and even brought up a couple of concerns! Oh well! I guess I need to still work on my big girl voice... Next time I will do his first and be first on the list! 

More posts?

I really should blog more. My life could be in the soap opera hall of fame. I swear if my ex isn't yelling at me, then my kids are getting sick, or I am racing to find a parking spot at the U. It is seriously one thing after another. Right now I sit in my house, with my sweet boy and baby girl, because she is sick. Kyla is off being social like her mother used to be, but Addy has a silly little Virus in her mouth that is causing us to quarantine into the basement apartment we call home. She acts fine, she is so playful and fun. Silly as ever, running around being goofy. But when the meds wear off her poor mouth hurts and she cries. It just breaks my heart. So for the 4 of 5 days we are here. Thank goodness for family that is willing to watch her for a few hours a day so I can get to most of my classes. So far I am only missing one day and that is such a blessing. So for the first time I am home watching the Superbowl. Go Steelers!! Too bad it isn't the Niners or the Chargers.. oh well the Steelers will do! Just beat the Pack!! lol

quiet house..

I am sitting in my house.. It is quiet.. I am missing Devan, He is hunting, Missing my kids they are at their dad's house. just another hour or so and I can get them. I have been sitting on my butt doing nothing since I got home at 2.. I am beat.. Crazy busy weekend and Crazy busy day.. One of these days I will have the energy to clean my house and get something done.. But not today..

Mis interpreting?

Ok, I have been told it seems as though I still love Chris? NOT A CHANCE... The feelings I had in this post were very surface feelings and only for a moment. Just closing the door of my feelings I did have. That are gone and now i can move forward leaving the past where it is and living a full filled life of fun and joy... Something I lost when I was married. And regained after the divorce!!

A new chapter

Well Chris was married yesterday. And I got to go on a much needed date with my honey. I am feeling ok about things. It is weird to think he is married to someone else. Not sure what the feelings are. DEFINITELY not jealousy, but it is weird to think one day you are with the one you will be with forever and the next they are with someone else. Even though I am happier than ever and I am being treated better than ever, still weird.

Now I am getting asked when I am getting married. Well I am in no hurry. I am with the one I want to marry and I know that when we both are ready it will happen. But after both of us being damaged by exes, that when we get married it will be right in God's eyes and he will bless us through our marriage.

Moving Forward

Well it has been 6 days since I found out my ex was taking the lead and gonna get married again. It is quite an interesting feeling to find out that type of news especially finding out second hand. Now I didn't need him to tell me or even expect him to call and get my blessing, but a simple text, email something, would have been respectful. Instead I get a phone call from a dear friend looking to find out if what she heard was true. Totally blind sided.. ugh, And not her fault by any means. But then, the emails, texts, phone calls start coming. Have you heard, we feel you should know, and the accusations about her, is she pregnant, is she making him... It is one thing after another. But hey, they will be married and that is that.

Now if you have ever been in this situation before, there can be a stream of emotion.
A- Hurt
B- Happy
C- Angry
D- Jealous
E- Sorry... for the girl

And many more, but they all come in at different angles over different things. I was soo mad at myself for being upset that it made me more upset. Angry even. But as I pray to God, I find myself thankful, that I have moved from that terrible situation, into the best situation of my life. Devan. He is giving, caring, loves me FOR ME! ( I know weird concept) I am so grateful that I have him in my life and plan on having him in my life forever.

Now the next question I am getting is when are you making the big step. My reply, when we know we are ready and can be committed to each other for EVER! I do plan on tying the knot one day and I believe that lucky guy ;) will be Devan. I can't see myself with anyone else but him. But we also want to be sure, and ready so that in 2 years we aren't divorced. If you jump into things, especially marriage, and you aren't ready it can cause a lot of problems.

So needless to say, I am happier than I have ever been, I have THE Most Amazing Man in my life ( He likes me to capitalize that so it sounds like, THE Incredible Hulk or Spiderman, Superman) lol just kidding, And I have 3 of my own kids that I love and are so great, then 2 just as amazing kiddos that I like to consider mine as well. What more can I ask for!? God is good and he truly is The provider!!