Kiddos

Oh how I love my kiddos! They really do make life so much more enjoyable! More stressful too, but the rewards are worth it. I sit and I watch them with each other and (most of the time) getting along and taking care of one another. Jaden is such a little man and just loves his sisters! Kyla is a bit on the jealous side but she is soo helpful and so goofy! Then there is Addy and she is just as sweet. She is talking soo much she repeats everything that we say, so cute.

Then I watch the kids with Devan and how much they get along with him and how much he cares for them. Which brings me to his kiddos. Chloe is 8. She is such a love bug. I just love having her here. She is fun to talk to and just fits with my other girls so much. And Aiden, Oh Aiden, What a stud. He is soooo lovable and cuddly. And he LOVE LOVES his daddy. Devan is so great with all the kids and making them all feel special in their own way.

Life is great!

DVO

Wow, where do I start. It's hard to write after I have been crying, which I will get to why soon enough. Those of you that are divorced, single, ever been single will understand this: How many people have tried to set you up on dates. Ugh, Most of them never happen, and the ones that do, are terrible. Absolutely horrific. So when Kelli and Nick Schroeter told me I had to meet Devan, Nicks cousin, I said ok sounds fun. I love to meet new people, but honestly had no high hopes. I had heard it before. And I was enjoying being single. Seriously had a great time finding out who I was and having ME time, Stuff I didn't get when married. So it was Oct 30th at Joe Talbots Bday/Halloween party and they said we need to hook you guys up. The following Sunday, Devan added me on the infamous facebook! Telling Kelli that I looked familiar, so I emailed him and told him I knew his ex from Jr High and that I would see them at Tball games that their daughter and my son both played in. That started it, we talked over a couple of emails and then he gave me his number and I texted him on my way to work that following Tuesday. And from that moment I felt something. The texts were so easy to write, we had a lot in common he was almost too good to be true, but he was true. The following weekend, me and the girls got the Swine Flu..icky sticky. But Sunday evening he came over just to meet me. It was seriously instant. From the moment he walked up the driveway through the back gate my heart was melting.
We talked for an hour or so and then we saw each other every day that week and I think there may have been one day where we didn't see each other, until he left for Boston, for business. I fell in love with him faster that I had planned. Remember I liked being single, I was happy, having a good time, but I could not let him get away. He was the whole package. Everything any girl could want. He has 2 great kids who I love and I think they love me back, And my kids really like him and he treats them so great. Kyla has been sketchy but I think I have figured out why, again thanks to Devan telling me what he saw on the outside.
We spent Thanksgiving together, Christmas and New Years. Everything was flawless. It was so easy to be with him, he mixed so well with my family. We even drug him Black Friday shopping. We are almost to our 3 month mark and we just had our first argument. Mainly cause I am insecure and jealous. but I am working on that, I am consciencly going to make sure I am not saying things that I know have no grounds, I am gonna put my trust in God that he has brought me a man that is trustworthy, who loves me more than I have EVER been loved. He actually shows me that he loves me. By his actions, the way he treats me, looks at me. I hated this weekend fighting with him. But we are gonna be ok, I am gonna make sure I get better and show him that I love him just as much as he loves me.

Update on Me

Wow.. Really it has been since my soul searching trip in June that i have posted? Ok, too much has happened to update on all of it! So here it is in Readers Digest version. While in Az, I got on my knees and made my decision. Asking God what I should do and then making my choice and having God walk through it with me by my side. Wow, Can we say a sense of peace immediately followed. Not to say I wasn't hurting anymore, or that I was healed, Hell no. More like ready to move forward with my life. I was ok to be single, I deserved better and if that meant I did everything for myself than so be it! ;) So in July I filed for divorce. Can we say ick to the process. It would have taken longer if igorant parties hadn't been involved, but oh well, By 12/11/09 I was a divorcee! (not something I wish upon anyone, and not something I am proud of by any means) But when you have been so deeply hurt and you have emotional wounds that may never heal, then divorce was the best thing that could have happened.
So then there were a few guys I dated here and there, One was engaged..LOSER... What is with men.. So yes that was my first experience with dating again, Way to go Brooke, blah.. Then I had a few total losers, some that turned out to be great friends. And some that just won't go away.
Christmas was hard but I had great people around me to keep me positive. Like the new beau.. Oh yeah there is a man in my life, but he is on the next post, Yes he gets a whole post to himself!
2010 is my year. 2o09 was the worst year of my life, but it led me to an amazing man, making it the best year! Plus I have grown closer to my sister and brothers and my PIC Aimee, Love that girl!!
xoxo